Mommy & Me Mini Session | Silianna

If you’ve ever had a child or if you’ve never had a child, this is for you.
Moms- Can I get an AMEN?

9 months. ok technically 9 months minus 2 weeks but 9 months they made their presence known. Sickness, uncomfortableness, lack of appetite followed by hunger for everything in sight. They took over your body! Your brain was high jacked, your bladder forgot it was an adult bladder and decided it could only hold 1oz at a time.

He wouldn’t keep his foot out of your rib, she got the hick-ups in the middle of the night.
OH what you wouldn’t give to be able to just sleep on your STOMACH again!
I promise you this child is trying to come out through my skin!
and then the wait… … … … … and more waiting… … …………. …. … …… .. ……
Is this it? it is time?! Oh wait, no they stopped never mind.
OUCH!!! this better be it!!!
And then more waiting…. but with PAIN!!! …. ! ….. !! …. !!! … !!!! .. !!!!! . !!!!!!!!!

And then they were here… <3

They say once you see them you forget the pain…
They lied.
Once you see them you WANT to forget the pain, but it continues… and now instead of being able to go back to sleep you need to stay awake and feed, and everything hurts. and you’re so tired. and this precious gift from God is… so awake. The struggle is real. But at LEAST you can sleep on your stomach, right? When you actually get to sleep.

To be completely honest I didn’t deal with EVERYTHING that was listed above. But then there were some things I DID deal with that are not listed above. Motherhood is not for the faint of heart. It’s no joke. The pain is real, sometimes for weeks before and after birth. The hormones make you feel like you’re going crazy. The lack of sleep- theres no way to describe it. Everyone gives you space, bless them. But then you feel so alone- and even CRAZY.

There were days with both of my children I honestly did not know how I was going to do anything. But I did. How? God and Supermom Juice. What? You mean they didn’t give you any of that at the hospital?!
Yeah me either. But something did happen at the hospital.
I became a mom, and for the first time, in those dark hours, after I was home, after the fanfare was over, after everyone else seemingly in the world was tucked away and sleeping soundly, while I was awake trying to teach a newborn to eat, I got it. I got what it meant to be a mom. I understood what my mom felt. Not just at our birth but through our childhood and even still. I didn’t feel like me any more because I wasn’t. I was now MOM.

It wasn’t about me anymore. It was about her. And as much as sometimes I wanted to give up, I couldn’t, she needed me. Not only that, she WANTED me. She LOVED me, despite how I felt about my self, my “new” body, and my inability to keep myself and her alive. She didn’t care. She didn’t even KNOW. She had just met me but I was all she wanted. And while at 2am that was not always fun, there was something about the way she looked at me, the way she held onto me, the way she stopped crying as soon as she heard my voice. I could do this! I GOT this. My life? Pft. My Dreams? What dreams? SHE needed me. and I needed her.

Her SMILES were my Supermom Juice. They kept me going. They still do, 2 years later when she’s now crying her “I’m so tired I don’t want to go to bed” song. I wouldn’t say every day IS easier, but every day it GETS a little easier because you get a little stronger. You figure out a little more, just in time for them to change- again.

What’s important to remember though is that we have been there too.
You’re NOT crazy. Some of us had help. Some of us did it on our own.
The Bible says there is no new thing under the sun.
I believe it. And that means someone has already been where you’re standing.

MOM- You’re not alone.
New mom- You’re not alone.
Single mom- You’re not alone.
Waiting mom- You’re not alone.
Wanting mom- You’re not alone.
Mourning mom- You’re not alone.
Supermom- Even You’re not alone. (Though you might be a unicorn)

Actually, the reality of it is this: We are ALL Supermoms. Because we are Moms. We CAN do it. Regardless of our situation. We WILL do it. You’re not going crazy even though it may feel like it. (It’s the lack of sleep talking- trust me)

We got this! God is for us, who can be against us.
Yes, that even includes that 1 week old, 6 month old, 14 month old and/or 3 year old you hold in your arms each night.
They aren’t against you. They are for you. They need you. They want you.

And it’s worth it. It really is. If I had the chance to do it all again, even knowing the pain, heartache, emotions, and that I would STILL be going through sleep deprivation, I would. Why? They are worth it.

YOU GOT THIS MOM!

Silianna- You are incredible. You are beautiful. You are a wonderful Mom. You are Stronger than you think or can imagine. These times are incredibly hard on all moms. and I mean ALL moms. But rest assured, you can do it. Even when it feels like you can’t, look UP.
He will never leave you nor forsake you. He sees you when all the world seems to be sleeping. He has a plan for you and sweet baby Ezekiel. A bigger plan than you could ever imagine. Just keep going. Keep your eyes on Him and He will guide you, walk with you, comfort you, strengthen you, protect you, help you, heal you, keep you, and love you. No matter what. As alone as it feels to be a mom sometimes, we aren’t alone. We have all been there.

YOU GOT THIS GIRL! I can’t wait to see what God has planned for you!

May 12, 2021

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